Wednesday, October 27, 2010

D day night

You might know that tomorrow is the day that will determine like 1/4 of your life if you are year 12 student in Victoria. But whatevs no biggie - hence why I am on le blog.
Due to the utter un-importance of 9am - 12.15pm tomorrow. And the spell check.
I know what your thinking, but don't even worry, as a wise slut once told me "you are not going to learn anything the night before, so just relax and get some rest."
She was a little bit wrong, so far I have learnt that sluts are people too, and valuable contributors to our society.

So anyway if you life in the southern metropolitan area of Melb, which I call mah home town, you might notice that in these past few weeks everybody has been shacking up. People are joining hands and getting together like nobody's business and couples are slowly moving to that point where its necessary to change their facebook status' in the interest of an honest media.
f-r-e-a-k o-u-t.
Thats right, your pal-y highschool chums, smooth operators and modern day goddesses are trading in their unattainable persona's for something a little more traditional. What induced this change of heart and caused even the most lucrative of ladykillers to place their hearts on their sleeves?
Is it something profound and omnipresent, like the completion of high school - the end of an era - making everyone feel the need to cling to one another for dear life because the mere thought of living outside the structured walls of scholastica is so confronting? Or could it be that the window of opportunity to win over your high school sweetheart is closing indefinitely and never again will you be able to live their teenage dream.
You can thank Katy Perry for setting the standard so high.
Or, to abandon all fleeting and wonderful notions of manifestations of young love, perhaps it is merely that at the end of season 2 of gossip girl, Chuck Bass was finally tamed by Blair and because we gen yers cannot think for ourselves we followed suit.
Yeah.
So, for those parents yet to learn something the night before their childeren's english exam, let it be that if you want to know whats going on in their lives, season four is out online.
You were warned.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

TRANSTITON.

The last days

of high school and it appears that everything is collapsing into one big heap. But not in a bad way, in kind of a manifestation way. And as things have fallen, they have been exposed.
Like I always wondered why people whip out their phones when they are by themselves. As if warding off any suspicion, like its okay, i'm on my phone. It's easily the most comforting thing do to when you are alone, why? Because by being on your phone, you are still in-touch with people, even though you are alone. Alone but not a loner. Clearly. Moreover, you seem cooler, because you are probs, actually deffs texting someone way more important/cool/hot/interesting than the people surrounding you. Especially when you have that self satisfied look on your face, or when you have sunglasses on.

Something else I realized was the magnitude of the compliment when someone asks you out and offers to pay for you. Think about it, you work for your money and are ready and willing to use it to give yourself a night out or whatever, people don't mind giving their money if they get something memorable in return. However, footing the bill for someone else is another matter. It is often out of obligation or 'duty' that people shout others. Or it may be that they are sa rich and money is a disposable thing for them. And they really, really wanted to point that out to you.
But in the case of those sincere offers, I think it means that the person really wanted to be with you. And like they pay for themselves to have the experience of you.
What a nice thought. Pity it only happens very very rarely.

Those are my only revelations for the moment. Hopefully there will be more in the course of the hardest month in my life so far and potentially ever. But all this commotion about VCE and graduating is making everything heaps clearer and in perspective.
I hope one day i'll read this and think I was over exaggerating because everything was fine.

Cross your fingers

Thursday, October 7, 2010

HELLO! : Stranger

To the familiar and the unacquainted,
Hello, it has been a while.


But within reason, might I add. My life has been seized and evaluated by the constant god damn hierarchy that is VCE. But you know what, as sucky as it is not have a life and have partially become a paranoid Polly and constantly worrying that your friends are your enemies because you are really competing with EVERYONE even if they tell you it will be okay if they copy your homework just this ONCE, you get major sympathy votes.
From every single person ever.
And I love it. I truly do. And maybe I might like it if I had to stay year 12 forever because I get a kick out of people doing an "oh, your really in for it" expression and wishing you luck, because you both know that the only shit going to get you through it is a miracle.
When, at any other point in your life, can people relate to your misfortune and are willing to be compassionate without pretentious pity? Never, not unless you are enrolled in units 3 and 4 of various subjects and forfeiting any social life/sleep/peace of mind/health in exchange for a number that dictates the rest of your life.

That being said, the end of VCE is really the only motivator for me at the moment. But when the time comes that I walk out of my last exam, leaving behind me high school and its riveting bullshit, I will not only lament the passing of my longest rite of passage, but the lady at the Clinque counter. The one who told me I could "do it!" as she applied my makeup. And the other lady who chatted to me about how ludicrous our curriculum was compared to what they had to do.
Who's going to pat me on the back at university? No one. People only want you to pull up your socks and get your head on straight unless you are studying medicine.

God I sound like such a baby. But whatever. I am entitled to it, you have entitled us to the odd whinge and eating badly a little to often. You wish you were in my shoes. My straight-laced, cant-work-on-this-nice-day-because-I-have-study shoes.

Hopefully, I see you less cynical and with breath on the other side.
Until then.